Pillow talk

Peace be upon you.

Pardon me once again for not posting regularly. So, what's up?
Many good things happen lately to me.
As i'm still a newlywed in blog... Even tho i've been in a passionate love with blog before but i divorced this blog for quite a long time due to the hacker; so i am indeed a newlywed to this blog, right? Then, i realised.

When you just became a newlywed or just became closer or just started something new, for me or what i'm trying to explain right now by using this newlywed metaphor (ridiculous how i tried hard coming up with this term hahaha) is blog-- rather than talking about something else, you should talk about yourself to the other party. What i just realised is that the past two posts were merely about me expressing my frustration. Not really a good thing to post when i just start afresh, right? Heh-- nevermind.
I can just post it right now. As i'm such a cool person so my principle which is,"you can just make it right when you were wrong and just let it go when you can't do anything about it" i never make a big fuss about something as i'm so optimistic and simple minded. So stop with all this crap and get started with my story in order to let you know me much better. PILLOW TALK tehee.

IF YOU are someone that ever made people questioned their personality, or made them feel wronged being themselves, you might as well read this to change that selfishness.

I used to love myself for being able to adapt to any environment and make it my very own comfort zone. I went throught everything MY WAY. Oblivious with the world that's changing to judgmental world where you are caged with stereotypes and the 'normal' standard. I couldn't get why i need to go along with all those trendsetters. "Those who are swayed are weaker".

People do talk or ask me why i'm so indifferent. I talk about history, politics and culture or just random facts. I can be serious and overly too much of talking that most people might find me annoying or whatever kind of bad label. I don't know why probably because i have a lot reasons to.
My attitude that tend to not let go of something once i get curious about it also does a big role in my mindset. Once i want to know something, i would learn about it. Namely, reading articles or some description from Wikipedia. I don't really felt any disadvantage in doing so. I am an airhead when it comes to math, because i am not used to being practical. I'm a free and random person.

This overly-curious of mine always made me develop a lot of interest. Some of them even make it as something that I want to pursue as an adult. It is something that I cannot ignore and feeling bad in having it. I know how some of people that know me feel like, "what is she talking about?" "why tell this thing to me, it's not like it is into my liking." I probably seems inconsiderate, pardon my eagerness pal. Anyway i'm not that clingy to people that are not into my things, i just continue to socialise the way they want me to, but to people that see eye to eye with me, i talk about those serious stuffs and we were having a good fun that way. However, others can't chill seeing me. They basically  just abruptly get into our conversation and be all judgy telling me those talks wont go anywhere because we're still kids. WHAAAAT? You don't care, that's you. I do care, my friend care, we care. You do you, i dont bother you but then--- whats this? I don't like fights so i just tell her to not bother us firmly and she stopped of course. I do finished things cleanly, so we do talk for a bit and get to make things better at last/
But, seriously why?
Why people bother about my preference?
Can't everyone accept everyone's life as long as they're doing good--? We all know everyone had their own colours and perspective so why do we need to nitpick on others?
I want to say more but ah i just hate how sleep is important although i'm writing.

I hope the world getting better for me.
For us.

Assalamualaikum.