REGRET

Peace be upon you

eclipse: "What do you hate the most about you?"

I don't really know but everytime i do something, it can be significant or not but either one always made me regret my action, decision and the choice. I feel like everything i did should be redo or reset.

By always i mean like really often-- there are times when i feel really down just because of the past mistake i made few seconds ago.

And at the disturbing point is when i am like extremely self-conscious because of my few years ago choice or a particular embarrassing incident i faced.

Really hate myself when i'm having this kind of thought. Misery, despair and disappointment towards self.

Such melancholy.

Hmm